Reviewing Things

As I think about my life I am truly blessed.  I am still here.  Once upon a time I had this spirit that would do whatever I wanted whenever I wanted, that girl left.  Where she went, I don't know.  The thing that is crazy are the decisions that I made really weren't the best.  True, what goes up most come down, that I completely understand.

Bad decisions
Liam should have been sold a long time ago, now I don't know if I'll be able to get rid of him.
Marybelle, it rains in her, I can't use the key to unlock the door, and now my seats will not move.
My house, in a neighborhood that's all I say, cost to much, interest rate high

On the other hand, I was able to do all of these things.  Now that 40 is coming fast, I feel that there are several things I should have done, but didn't do.  It's not the best feeling.  One thing I can say is I have learned from my mistakes and all I can do is try to make them better.

It's the summer time and there are things I want to do.
Laingley's 1st birthday party
take a trip in July
get house together
take a mommy and me swim class
take him to the beach

All of this takes money, did I mention that I dropped my phone again.  It never fails, there is always something.  On a brighter note, I do feel better about myself.  I've decided to do the things that I have failed to do.  For instance, take a drawing class.  I also want to take sign language.

I'm taking one day at a time, that's all I can do.  Tomorrow isn't promised I know, but I have to make the most of it.  I've gotten over myself and I must stay that way.  

Trouble is Always There

8 months later and still finances are an issue of mine.  As the saying goes, I can't win for losing.  Don't get me wrong things are good and I always get out of the situation I am in. 

This is what is going on:  
Parkchester about to go in foreclosure.  Probably already in it $3500
Gas bill
TMobile about to be turned off
Direct TV turned off
Knology
Marybelle tire and brakes
Liam muffler and air
MEA
Tax Lien
US Dept of Education
Wachovia

I am blessed, don't get me wrong.  There are plenty of wonderful things that have happened.  I am glad to have been able to receive and experience all of them.  Being able to conquer these financial issues will let me know that I can do anything.  The sad and funny part of it all is that money comes in, and I misuse it.  That is all that it is, I don't respect money.  I said.  I have two checks that I haven't cashed, one is almost 2 months old. 

As I stated, money comes in and I don't use it how it should be.  Plus I am owed $2850.  Filing for an eviction tomorrow.  Overdrawn in my account too.  The story of my life.  I can help everybody, but I can't seem to help myself.  So very sad. 

The other day I wrote out all of the bills that I owe.  I get paid in a few days. 
Should I take money out of one account to clear the checking from being overdrawn?
Pay gas bill
When I get paid take all of my money and pay off the foreclosure?  Leaving me broke for the enitre month.  ( I will get a refund at the end of June)
Family reunion at the end of June, need to purchase ticket and find a place to stay
Too hot to drive Liam, sometimes he doesn't want to crank
Marybelle's tire is flat and it has a sensor in it and her breaks need fixing

What makes matters worse is, I have the money, I just don't want to pay my bills.  I said it, ok!  That's the truth of the matter.  Things always work themselves out.  Didn't mention that the back of Parkchester is awful full of weeds.  Working on turning that into a group home.  Learn how to make arrangments with the different companies.