Coming to terms with my reality has been a learning lesson and a bunch of other things. I have been thinking seriously about letting go of both vehicles. That means selling them both. The Land Rover (Liam) needs some work and so does the Mini Cooper (Marybelle). Something has to give. We need something that we can fit in comfortably, low gas mileage, and can serve the purpose of us. What kind of car would that be? I don't know, but I know I want to pay cash for whatever that may be. At the same time the house needs to be repaired. I did get a few things done a couple of weeks ago. There are still several things that need attention. The only thing I can do is take one thing at a time.
See what's wrong with the flooring
Get another tree limbs cut (from in neighbors yard)
The major thing is reduction, getting rid of things that aren't needed anymore. My how the pendulum has shifted.
As for the flooring, he's going to have to go under the house to see what the problem is and we go from there. I have to have enough to survive.
Going to have Liam towed today to see what's wrong with him. The towing is free and the consultation is too. That's good, now to see how much it's going to cost to get him fixed. Once he's fixed, I will not drive Marybelle for a while until I have enough to get the seats repaired. I only owe $3283 on Marybelle. I'm so ready to be done with that monthly bill. See what a mid-life crisis will do for you. Bad choices.
During my break:
Get Liam towed
Call student loan companies to see about consolidation and cutting late months
Call First Premier to get another card
Call Greentree to find out about getting rid of 6 missed payments on account
Student loans
I have them, misused them and took them for granted. I'm here now. Do I need to finish my PhD program? Yes. Do I have the money? No. When I finish, my pay will increase by about $12,000 a year. That's about $1000 a month. That would be great. Right now, I don't see how this can be done.
Where there's a will, there's a way. I will continue to pay what I can on these debts and move forward. Going to call today to see what I can do to get these things under control. This is the reason why my credit scores are having a hard time. Live and learn.
I'll admit, I have been down on myself lately and don't know where to turn to make things better. What I do know is I don't need to create any more debt. Get out of the debt I have. Move forward and make things better for the long run. I'll be just fine, we'll be just fine. I believe in myself and this journey that I am on. The first steps are knowing and second is doing something about it. Focus on the problem and make it work.
I got this. Sometimes it seems I don't, but it will all work itself out. Trust!
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