Sunday, April 7, 2013

Here It Is

Things have been working out pretty well.  First, 1010 is rented out.  Good job!  There are little issues with the property, but they are getting fixed.  For instance, there's a hole under the sink, the heater grate needs to be replaced, and the gas meter has been pulled due to a leak.  Now, I have to find a certified plumber to fix it. 

3210 is empty, thank you for that.  There are a few things that need to be fixed and I'm going to get them fixed this week.  I have to go to court to get the rest of the money they owe from 3210.  That's a part of the job that I don't like. 

The issues have been eating out, that is where majority of the spending is done.  I'm trying to work on that.  I had a large amount of money to come in from working the morning lab and Saturday School.  Having a second job within the first one is good.  Making sure I do right by the money is the whole thing. 

There are doctors bills that I have and need to be paid so they don't end up on my credit report.  Checked my credit score and they are awful, the only choice I have is to go up.  Continue to pay off outstanding medical bills that are sitting and build credit.  I have automatic draft for all bills except the water.  Continue to save and put the money in the right place.  Looking to get a secured loan on 1,000.  What could I do with that money?  Pay off a large bill, I did get settlements for a couple of them.  Pay them off and not get anymore debt. 

The whole purpose of this blog is for me to get out of debt and it seems I do while for a moment and something happens.  I can't continue to sabatoge myself, that seems to be what I'm good at.  Falling for the set up.  The money that I'm spending on food could pay off a few bills.  That money put it toward the debt.  Instead of eating out, pay a bill. 

Questioning do I want to continue to live here?  A note was in my door, it was crazy.  Trying to live her until 40, let's see how that goes.   Can't continue to slight myself, I tend to be good at that.  I don't know what my future plans are and that's the problem I'm having getting out of school.  What do I do?  Financial Aid is exhausted.  Had to take out a personal loan for nothing because I haven't made any adequate gains.  Feel like giving up, but I've come to far.  What do I do with this degree?  I don't know.  What do I want to be when I grow up?  I don't know.  I've been teaching for 13 years, will I be a 50 year old business education teacher? 

Where do I go from here?  I love making candles and doing this real estate thing, they both bring me joy.  Have a d r period, in the front of my name has always been a dream of mine.  Will it be a dream deffered?  At this point, my mind is tired of thinking about school.  Once the decision is made there's no turning back. 

Decisions that need to be made
What are my future plans?  3 years, 5 years, 10 years from now
Do I want to continue to stay here?  For how long
What kind of career do I want? 
How will I acquire more properties?
What do I see myself doing?
How can I bring more happiness into my life?
Put the main thing first.
Buckle down and do what's right
Let the new me come out

This year has been filled with experiences and things I will never forget.  I have something that I am sitting on and I'm excited about it.  First, I don't want to let it go.  Do right by the money I have.  All bills are paid and life is getting better.  I'm learning about myself and realizing that everything is going to be alright.  Make sure I do what's right and just and most of all put the money in the right place and don't blow it. 

There's so much to say and I don't know where to start.  My personality is different and overall, I try to stay out of everybodies way if I can.  I have a spirit of expression.  I don't try it just comes out, but I want people to see me.  I said it, see me, here me, notice me, something.  I've been told my spirit is free.  I do want I want because that's what I want to do, not because this is what people are doing.  I'm my own self.  Right now, at a crossroads and don't know which way to go.  I feel like I'm maturing in so many respects, well have matured.  Things that many get upset about doesn't bother me.  Why because life goes on.  I learn, listen and move on. 

Not knowing what's going on or having a plan has caused me to be in school for this long.  No ultimate goal, well, that is to graduate, but no plan after graduation.  Is being a middle school business education teacher my end result?  No disrespect to those, but that seems so mandane, like there's more to lif than that.  Am I lazy?  Looking for a job is hard and waiting.  That another story within itself.  I guess I know the answer to my question, continue to look and apply to different jobs and that's the only way I will get another one.  Can't expect one to fall in my lap. 

Mid-life is serious especially when your learning and don't have a typical life.  As always thank you for reading. 
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